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Friday, April 13, 2007

Fri, 13 Apr 2007 04:39:09 GMT

Stressful times

I cant get ova the feeling that i feel so overwhelmed

I cant get over the feeling that i feel so hopless

I cant get over the feeling that my heart is sometimes fill with emptness

I cant get over the feeling that i have to much pressure on me

I cant get over the feeling that i worry about my sister to much

I cant get over the feeling that people that bugs me be irking my nerves

I cant get over the feeling that people judge me

I cant get over the feeling that family and friends of mom wants me to take over

I cant get over the feeling that my life seem like its not going as plan

I cant get over the feeling that my head hurts if i think about school

I cant get over the feeling

That Im so stress out I dont know what to do

i guess everyone has stressful times

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Tue, 23 Jan 2007 23:21:17 GMT

Depression

So life doesnt always seem fair

It just doesnt seem easy

Maybe your a screw up or you life is created with no destiny

You always have a thought or a vision of giving up everything

But something in your heart tells you to keep going

Life Is always going to be here

Even if you buried 6- feet under.

Your life is carried through many people

Through the memories and is shared by people who love and care about you.

So you life is not perfect and always seems hard

But you are still on earth for a reason.

You have to go through te toughest moment to get to the glorest ones.

So dont bring yo self down because of one innocent

There is more to life than just that moment.

Your heart might be feeled with all emotions.

Your mind has been made up.

You choosethe path you wanted.

You dug the hole so far you cant get out of it.

The people that care

you just dont believe them.

Maybe your love one cant stand to see it.

You say your in pan and feel hopeless

Did you look in front of you that the most important?

Do you want to give up on life itself?

You just dont know what to do with yourself?

So Give it a try change your mind

Life is nnot as bad as it seems.

you have control of your destiny.

Get out your funk and get loose

There always a different route to choose.

So the moments you have well ast away.

Leave them there to look back one day

To say you made it though the toughest times..

Take it slow a day at a time.

Depression is not a key to your life...

This illness can make you life a living hell...

Dont make it control you are you might be in danger!!!

HEY

Wed, 16 Aug 2006 19:42:33 GMT

YEa so wat if i Dont get on ALl the Time. Anywayz Hit Me bAc IF Ya Can. Luv Ya not LOve you But Luv ya lol peace

Do you care?

Thu, 03 Aug 2006 19:24:52 GMT

I just want to kill myself at the moment. I just dont wanna feel no pain anymore...

This was written 7/13/06

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 20:39:13 GMT

Right now, I'm on tha road to the family reunion in alabama. Well i watching madea go to jail. I drove for awhile and we got to the hotel and then went to John our cousin and ate and also sang Happy Birthday to my grandma Dobynes. She woulnt tell us how old she was. That was funny. Well I'm going to slee see ya :).

This was written 7/12/06

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 20:31:41 GMT

We was getting ready for the trip. I took forever. We went everywhere. Went shopping to go geet clothes. I went to the movies wait no I didnt i went to a baseball game. Showing my buddy Clinton some support. What it do. Oka o i know that dont sound right oh. I spoken to dray and he was talking about breaking up with me. But he said he wasnt but I heard Him say he want to talk to the other girl thats in love with him and that he said he use to like. That had me wonder about him for a min. Anywayz I love Dray. He just don't know. I don't like being covered by other girls to where he don't see. I want him to know im not playing. I feel it inside. I just wish i can see him. Maybe in two months.

This was written 7/10/06

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 20:22:38 GMT

We were suppose to go take pictures but I ended up not because me sedria didnt wake up on time and it was 9: something and we had to be there @ 8 so I went back to sleep. Then I got woke up by Mrs. Freda and also with a headache. So I got dressed then we went to Robinson to pay for Sedria Book and then to Oak Grove but on the way to Robinson we went to walmart to buy breakfeast. I got chicken and dount from Krispy Kreme. We wen to Ok Grove and I considered as a senior and I have to go to night school. Seem like a ard year but im not complian i did but i on myself. I'm going to wait till the time come. I have to learn t take a step at a time. Life gets harder when my mom is not here with me. She help me take those small steps when thought i couldnt do it. Now i have to depend on myself i dont have my encourager to help me. I wish i could just hear here voice agian. I miss her so much it hurts so much i cant feel nothing. I spent the night at Daunna house with hanna. We rented movie and went to sleep.

This was written 7/11/06

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 20:12:11 GMT

I just woke up and we are abobut to go to the movies at 2:44. so i have to get dressed. We got done watching stick i. It was good. I went shopping again today. I got a dress. So I have to find casal wear. But we doing that tomorrow. I went to Cliton baseball game his team lose but I have faith in him. Dray is my baby he is everything i need because he understand me. I'm watching aeonflux.

This was written 7/9/06

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 20:04:48 GMT

Today I got a headache. I think I know what started it. Anyway I was at Uncle Henry's House and we were laughing so loud. Because we told him he look like radio but the thing was i didnt know te dudes name. Then me and sedria stole his sweet tarts. He didn't even know that was so funny. My day went okay. I talked to my boo dray. I think he think I've changed. I think I have too. Ive been trying to stay busy. I want to cry but I can't. It hurts so much when i can't I feel so lost but im still ere. The thing thats been on my mind is my grandparents. My grandpa wants to have the cellphone back ut i was going to give it back anyway. Then he wanted me to talk to grandma but i didnt want to talk to her. She asked why i didnt want to talk to her and I said because I didnt want argue. she said didnt or wasnt going too. I knew she was but yea i was going to aruge. But i did talk to her. I really want my clothes. Well I'm tired.

This was written 7/9/06

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 19:50:39 GMT

Today I called my grandparents and told them I was staying. Then It had me thinking. My grandma try to make me gulity about leaving my grandpa. My grandpa seemed upset but he understood me. Grandma tripped out really bad. I know she i going to call everybody. I know they are going to be calling me. Now I hope I have strength. My grandparents though I was forced to stay but it was my choice. My sisters need me. My parents need well it feels weird to say parents.